Daddy what’d you leave behind for me?
Wassurp errbody. So i had a fantastic day with Alex. I love that whale.
Anyway, about my title, i really miss my dad and how he used to be. Nowadays, he drinks, argues with his girlfriend, and apparently smokes. He was facetiming with my little sis and she saw him put something white in his mouth that resembled a cig. i wouldnt be surprised if it was weed. While my sister was there this summer, she was exposed to so much fighting and him drinkin. Some father he is. Its really taking a toll on her. When he lived here, he was awesome. Took me to baseball games and just did fatherly things. About a month ago, i saw a little kid about 4yo and his dad eating breakfast in McDonalds and it reminded me so much of me when i was younger and we would get breakfast. And how i wish we could still do that now. I wish so much to have a son one day and take him to breakfast and raise him how my dad raised me, up until he left, then do all i can to give him what i didnt have.
My lil sis butt heads alot and dont get along very often, but now, i am gonna treat her much better. And im off to a decent start. Shes started mid school this year and its not going well at all. Shes failed a class and isnt doing well in the others. And apparently there are two boys in her class that bully her by calling her fat and other things. And she hates being at school because of it. She already has anxiety and selfesteem issues. Im gonna have a word with both boys tomorrow if i get the chance. I will hit a child. Not really. But i will scare them. School happenings and our “father’s” bullshit have put her in a dark place. She may need to go on anti-depressants. She has even had thoughts of killing herself. And that just rips me apart. Suicide is my least favorite thing in this world. My uncle took his own life and he was my hero. Imma help her through this.
On a more peachy note, Alex talked me into playing baseball. Im kinda glad she did. Itll be fun. And the coaches can finally stop begging me. Yee.
Valeran will know harmony
May the Force be with you
